Friday, February 10, 2012

Friday Coffee Date {an update on the hubby}

Happy Friday friends!

I have been a bit MIA this week, the nasty cold/flu bug hit me, but I'm back in business today! Good thing because I have a hair appointment and a dinner date with my bff tonight!

I'm following in Mrs. Alissa's {rags to stitches} foot steps and doing coffee date Friday. It is pretty simple. I share with you stuff I would probably discuss if we were sitting down together having a cup of coffee. {Which I also get to do with April of Marine Parents  on Saturday, squeal!!}

{how freakin cute are these coffee sleeves??!}

If we were to sit down to coffee I'd share with you that my anxiety has been through the roof lately. I'd also reveal that my anxiety has been haywire because I got a call two Fridays ago from the hubby {not a good sign}. I was getting ready to head into the mall with my girlfriend Tobi for a little shopping fun when the phone starting ringing and a Rhode Island number flashed on the screen.

My husbands voice was calm and almost in a whisper. He asked what I was doing. {probably to ensure I wasn't driving or using a sharp knife before he told me the news}. I asked him what he was doing, to which he replied "babe, I've injured myself". In the 2.5 seconds between me asking how and him responding I swear I thought of 1000 possible scenarios. Blew out his knee, broke his leg etc.

He pinched a nerve in his left arm and had no feeling and thus was not able to move it. We spoke for about 10 more minutes, where I was trying to take it all in. What did this mean, would he graduate OCS? Would they do the unthinkable and send him home? I just tried to listen as he told me everything he knew. He would have to see a neurologist. He would be rolled back into a different class but he was pretty confident that he would not be sent home. He said he would now have phone privileges on Sundays so he would try and call me in two days.

I hung up the phone and burst into tears. I immediately asked Tobi if I sounded like I was calm and holding it together when I was on the phone. She assured me that I was. Thank gosh for having a friend with me when Scott called. I probably would have been a hot mess getting the news alone.

After we had done a bit of shopping and scarfed down frozen yogurt for dinner {isn't fro yo for dinner warranted when you get bad news??} I headed home. I called my friend Liz and asked her if she could come over. I needed to cry some more. I got out the rest of my fears and concerns talking to her and Rik. I woke up Saturday morning hoping it was all a dream.  It of course was not a dream.

My biggest fear was that he would not graduate, that this would some how disqualify him. I was officially a hot mess on Saturday, I could not eat, I would cry at the silliest things and had that horrid pit in my stomach feeling. I wanted to know more and part of my anxiety was due to the fact that I was going to be flying all day Sunday to go see my family so I didn't know if I'd get to speak with Scott again. I wanted to know more and needed reassurance that this was just a set back.

As Liz and I got on the PCH early Sunday morning {like 6am early} my phone rang and again the Rhode Island number flashed on the screen. I spent the next 30 minutes talking to Scott and getting a better idea of what was going on and the plan. He was 100% confident that he was not leaving Rhode Island until he was a commissioned officer. This was just a tiny set back. He joked that in a few years we are going to look back at this and laugh. I felt better. He said everything I needed to hear.

I was never worried about his injury. I was worried that somehow this dream he had been working on for years and worked so hard at would come to a crashing halt. I was afraid that he would not be able to complete the program, not because he quit but because they wouldn't let him.

I spent a lot of time on Saturday as well as the last two weeks in prayer. My anxiety was at an all time high. I needed the Lord to carry me through this. I needed the Lord to carry my husband as well. He needed prayer to keep his spirits up and to remind him of the end goal.

Scott will not be able to start back up again until at least March 4th. He has been moved to medical hold which gives him a bit more freedom and allows him to focus on healing his arm. It also allows him to have visitors. That means I will be packing my bags, again, getting on a jet plane and flying to more freezing temperatures.

If we never see a reason as to why this situation happened I have comfort in knowing that both myself as well as Scott grew closer to the Lord. We have been tested to see if we can give it all to him.  I truly feel like for the first time both Scott and I are walking side by side with the Lord and he is leading us down the path he has intended for both of us to walk.

I wake up every day and remind myself that God is good and he NEVER gives us more than we can handle.



Manda Jane said...

I can't imagine how awful that would be - dealing with all of that with your hubby so far away! It's true that if God brings us to it, he will bring us through it. And it's all in His plan, even if we don't understand it at the moment. So happy that this won't interfere with his dream!

Simply.Lovely.Things said...

Aww Jen...that's just awful. I can sympathize with you. As if being seperated isn't enough but you know what, he's strong and so are you. God has set you both on a path and I'm confident he intends to keep you there. I'm so glad I got off my hiney and got your envelope in the mail. If ever you needed a pick up...right? Hang in there! <3

Alyson @Eisley Rae said...

Oh Jen, I'm so sorry for all of the worry & anxiety & stress you've been through this past week. That is rough. I'm glad to hear that it sounds like everything will turn out ok. And YAY for getting to go visit him! I hope you have an amazing time!! xoxo

Kay Ellen said...

Love the coffee cup warmers:))
Happy Valentine's Day!

Are you going to be vendor at the Spring event for Sew Funky?
Maybe I will see you!

Kay Ellen

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